It has been 15 years since we set eyes on each other. Actually, it was his voice that was my first introduction to him when he had asked my friend if I was alright as I was napping while everyone was up and about. I remember thinking his voice felt familiar in my sleep induced haze.
At some point, perhaps sometime in 2009 or 2010 after our first reunion, I had looked up zodiac compatibility as I am apt to do at times for funsies. As it turns out, we are not the most compatible on pure sun signs but I did find one of the top search results site that had said we are soulmates which seemed so contrary to what others were saying on paper. I never did find that site again many years later when someone else who was Aries was talking about his compatibility with a potential Virgo date.
Recently, upon learning more about the different aspects of one's birth natal chart and the complexities of astrology (trifecta), it became more clear to me what that site was alluding to. We are quincunx (five signs apart) as well as yin and yang from a polarity perspective. "When you play to your strengths, you balance each other out...feel like you're with your soulmate or the devil incarnate...bond is intense, unspoken, almost secretive in a way...if you've both done the requisite self-awareness work, you can make a formidable team when you pool your strengths." Yet with my moon, we would be trine (four signs apart) with the same element of fire, and would explain the "unspoken kinship and harmony," feeling "so comfortable, so understood on a core level".
Happening on "twin flames" (11:11 (part 1)) and understanding our life goal of our soul work, processing fears and blocks on the journey to unconditional love, align with the "requisite self-awareness work". With that though is also the concept of mirroring each other so that we reflect each other's fears onto the other as a way to force one to work through such demons (full circle (part 1)).
Prior to finding "twin flames," I had requisitioned in early December a YouTube tarot reader, whom I connected with the week before I saw him again at the end of November, to perhaps answer the one question I had...in hopes of better reconciling in my mind his constant entrances and exits and finding peace. She sent it after the new year and a week later, she had also posted her first reading for the new year. In the various videos I've seen from her for multiple months and signs, only these two had the "Soulmate" card jumping out and flying off as she was shuffling (the first at 32:55 and the latter at 12:19 marks).
Over Christmas, my friend's aunt informed me that she did not see the male spirit and was not sure when or if he left. I know he was around in November from 22. In the past few months, I have let go of any preconceived notions of where this journey will take me. I am also getting to be at peace with the fact that perhaps union with this twin flame does not occur in this lifetime, and I am happy with any future soulmate connections (or reconnections - when it rains, it pours) that I have soul contracts to encounter.
In July 2015, a fortune teller had mentioned that he was separating from his current relationship as he has always been in love with me. I was taken aback at the time because while I knew about his separation, I had given no indication about him at all when she began her reading. Always loving me seemed a bit hokey in my practical mind since we really only had 2009 together with intermittent periods within the last 10 months before meeting up with his ex, and barely knew each other. I do believe though that in the 5D, she is correct in her statement. On this day though, I am sending positive thoughts and energy to my twin as he works through his life lessons (11:11 (part 5)), as I am courageously working through mine.
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