expansion

My life has not necessarily been easy; however, it has been blessed...from family to friends to lovers to career. In the end, every hurdle, challenge, moment, laughter, and love have shaped who I am and my journey to aligning my physical self with my spiritual self.

I learned in my 20s that I had to forgive in order to not be burden by the past. It was mostly because they were such heavy weights on my shoulders and kept dragging me back to darkness. It is only now that I recognize that forgiveness is not just about forgiving and forgetting. Freeing myself to possibilities and being self aware of my surroundings and past have me realizing that there are no coincidences in life.

That does not mean that I fully believe in fate any more than I believe in free will. Actually, like my view on evolution and creationism, the concepts are not mutually exclusive (22). We have the free will to ask for anything we wish. It is our thoughts, feelings and actions though that manifests the outcome, and in that way, nothing is coincidental.

Letting go is not just about giving up the hope that the past could have been different. True forgiveness is being grateful for the person coming into your life and giving you that experience (in a way, this lines up with The Little Soul and the Sun: A Children's Parable in to err is human, to forgive, divine). Every hurt, frustration, disappointment, and sadness was an opportunity for me to learn more about myself and my boundaries (full circle (part 2), face of the girl (part 1), and face of the girl (part 5)). Sometimes I am a slow learner so had to experience certain things a few times. 😔

Learning about what I did not want helped me learn what I did want (full circle (part 2)). Similarly, nothing new can come unless you give up something old. While gratitude helped me to let go, nothing new could come into my life without the feeling of gratitude of the past. I signed up again to OKCupid tonight, as a symbol of not being afraid of being hurt, trusting myself to love myself and opening myself to receiving whatever the universe puts in my path. I am still yearning to learn, and new experiences are the steps to closing the gap to my spiritual self.