walking tree ... new or old roots

It has been two years since joining the online dating world. It was 2015 New Year's resolution that was a reaction to exorcising demons from September 2014. I am not sure if doubling numbers and experimenting with alternative lifestyles and personalities have made me any wiser, but I have been able to knock off some bucket list items.

2017 is a new cycle in astrology and represents new beginnings. In my personal journey, it seems a natural time to close many chapters and begin new ones. As a commitment to a friend, I have permanently deleted all my online dating profiles. 

Yesterday during my hike in Central Catchment Nature Reserve in Singapore, mother nature provided me with some food for thought and introspection. The walking tree (socratea exorrhiza) reminded me of a quote that while it has been falsely attributed to Plato, is still poignant:

"People are like dirt. They can either nourish you and help you grow as a person or they can stunt your growth and make you wilt and die."

While botanists may not agree whether the walking tree actually "walks," it does seem to sprout new roots to find sunlight and nourishment while old ones may wilt away. As the new year starts and a new cycle begins, this is my personal year 3 in numerology - a year of creativity, motivation and inspiration. It seems as if the sun, moon and stars are aligned for me to do a bit of housecleaning and make some bold changes. 

I would like to get to my grassroots and core:

• Curiosity and learning
• Project(s) that brings out my passion
• Kindness and acts of service
• Simplification
• Friendships and love

The mushrooms reminded me to strive to live in sunlight and positive energy rather than the darkness within. While I believe that people come in and out of your life for a reason, that does not mean that they have to stay in it, especially if it is cause for sucking your life source. I need to continue to focus on my journey and not get distracted by others' paths, requiring me to leave some old friends and acquaintances behind.

I am not sure where the path will take me - sunshine, shade, straight, meandering, treetop, ground floor, flying through branches or getting out of webs...my primary goal is not only to embrace the obstacles and focus on the positives but also to leave others intact or better off than how they were before.

We all have to make choices, and I feel as if I'm at a cross roads with making a critical one that has haunted me for years. Twin flame or Achille's heel? If the latter, sometimes cutting off the dead branches is the only way to keep the tree alive. If the former, letting go allows the flame to burn until it's ready to reunite with the twin. So why have I struggled in the last two years to keep my flame from dwindling out? Perhaps focusing on the other parts of the self will fan the flames until the twin is ready or perhaps the twin's journey extends beyond this lifetime, equating this to Achille's heel for me?

On my journey to enlightenment and following the path to the canopy to see the forest for the trees, do I start a new path or a parallel one that keeps him in sight while he's walking his? Either way, I'm letting go and trusting divine timing.